Showing posts with label 30 Days/30 Years. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 30 Days/30 Years. Show all posts

Monday, June 14, 2010

Reflections on Turning 30



Thursday June 10, 2010 was a simple wonderful, dare I say perfect day.

I was awakened before 5am with a gentle kiss and a "happy birthday" from Dan and promptly fell right back to sleep (as I do every morning).

The alarm went off a little before 7am so I could make my 7:30 yoga class. I got dressed, ate an apple and filled my water bottle. I got another "happy birthday" from our friend Jill who after a long tale of misfortunate was fortunate to spend the previous night in the warm coziness that is our home- laughing and talking with Dan and me until after midnight. I'm grateful to have had her company, and glad we could help her, even just a little.

Yoga class was phenomenal. I've only take a handful of classes in my life and I forget how much I enjoy it. I need the stretch, my body practically insists and yet I ignore it all too often.

The focus for this class was the Second Chakra, which amazingly, was perfect for me. The Second Chakra is located below the navel and rooted into the spine, is connected to the spleen and the digestive system and is often referred as the “sacral” chakra. It is the seat of our emotions, sensations, pleasure, movement and nurturance and it controls our relationships and social interactions with others. It governs our self-worth, confidence in our own creativity and ability to relate to others in an open and friendly way. The second chakra is the chakra of creativity, pure attention and pure knowledge. It is the one which connects us to the inner source of inspiration, and enables us to experience the beauty around us.

There was a lot of focus on the hips and shoulders, two of my most tender, tight spots. It helped to stretch and ease some pain. And as we lie in savasana at the end of class, the instructor gave us instructions on how to go forth with the day- "look for beauty everywhere you go.... do something creative today, even if it is just creatively organizing your sock drawer... be inspired and enjoy each moment."

I felt like she was speaking just to me.

I came home and ate some breakfast. A wheat/everything bagel with whipped cream cheese and CSA chives mixed in. Blueberries and strawberries on the side. I watched Regis and Kelly and let the relaxation continue a little before my shower.



I resisted the urge to stay away from work email for most of the day, but had to peek at my favorite morning indulgence- my "Daily Thought" from Real Simple Magazine. Another "you have to be kidding me, does the whole world know its my birthday?!?" moment. The quote for June 10: “There is no old age. There is, as there always was, just you. ” ― Carol Matthau

I suppose the world is trying to tell me something :)


After some cleaning, a shower and some primping, I met Krissy, Willy and Aila for lunch. Well technically I met them in the parking lot of Bank of America so Kris could do a banking transaction solo (instead of +2), and she practically threw my present at me in the bank parking lot dying for me to open it! And I was just as thrilled as she was, once I got all that tissue paper out of the way. Its a filled-pancake pan from Williams & Sonoma and a container to put fresh whipped cream in so you can spray it out with little bursts of N2O that comes in these little chargers!! Oh, we're going to have some fun with this!! :) {Thanks again Kris! I love you}


We made our way to Strawberry Fair for lunch. The kids were both on their best behavior, alternatively being so cute, silly and entertaining and then quiet enough for Krissy and I to talk. At one point before the food came out, Willy (who was sitting next to me), reached over and gently put his left hand on my right thigh and said unprovoked "I love you." Oh I could eat that kid up! Aila ate more than all of us combined, but when she wasn't eating she was imitating everything going on. The waitress was a super sweet 50 something who adored the kids, and who loved talking with her hands. As soon as she walked away, Aila turned to the only other patron and started babbling, arms out, palms up just like the waitress had done! She picks things up quickly that little noodle.


I believe Willy took this shot. The lighting was wonky in there- he's actually usually very good at using my camera, despite the fact that he's not yet 3 years old...
And Kris was kind enough to take this. She took some others that were technically better shots, but I love this one.

We wrapped up lunch around 3p and made our way to the parking lot, the only cars left. I put Willy in his carseat and gave kisses and hugs to each of my lunch companions, thanking them again for a wonderful meal. I walked back to my car, got in and started driving towards the exit when I could see Willy yelling and motioning like crazy. I finally rolled down my window and stopped as I pulled up next to Kris' van to hear him saying "I need one more kiss!!!" How can you say no to that?! I got out, car still running, and walked over to the van, asking if we could manage this through the window (which didn't go all the way down). Um no, clearly that was not acceptable. Kris opened the door and I got one more big kiss. As I backed away, I thanked him and said 'I love you' like I always do and Willy's response was "I need a hug!" So we did a bonus hug too. And then he was satisfied. He blew me kisses as I drove away still yelling "bye" and "love you" as best as I could tell with his window back up! :) What a sweetie pie. He's going to make some woman very lucky some day.

I hooked up my ipod to my car stereo and continued to listen to Eat. Pray. Love. by Elizabeth Gilbert. I read this book shortly after it was released a few years ago and have been falling in love with it all over again this week. I'll admit this book is one of the main reasons I even thought to go to yoga this morning.

I also hooked up my GPS- destination: The Creative Stitch. I had a feeling it might be too late to try for a drop-in class to learn how to switch colors in my knitting, and I was right. But it was still fun to browse the store, and I took advantage of the free time to get in a little walking through the streets of downtown Hingham and all its cozy, unique shops. I even treated myself to an ice cream, which was far larger than I expected and I'm ashamed to say I had to toss out because I couldn't finish the whole thing!!


I had hoped to catch the Cohasset Weekly Farmers Market but it wasn't open. I'm not sure if its just too early or if it was the lousy weather, but with my audiobook keeping me company I didn't mind a few miles out of my way.


At home I listened to the end of my book. If you haven't read Eat. Pray. Love, I beg you to go buy it or borrow it right now. Here are a couple quick exerpts that really spoke to me:


"Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be."

"People tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will descend like fine weather if you're fortunate. But happiness is the result of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."

"Having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face. You really need to be certain it's what you want before you commit."

"We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy's fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure--your perfection--is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the buy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart."

"You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight."

"There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts."

"I thought about one of my favorite Sufi poems, which says that God long ago drew a circle in the sand exactly around the spot where you are standing right now. I was never not coming here. This was never not going to happen."


While I listened to the last CD of the audiobook, I finished my scarf! The first project I've ever completed for myself! Sort of lovely and ironic being that it was my birthday, and that was I specially assigned a creative task by the yoga teacher just that morning!

{insert picture here. i promise i will take one this week}
Dan came home as I was finishing my project. We chatted for awhile and flicked through the TV channels, finally settling on our library DVD rental- The Blind Side. Yet again, if you haven't seen this movie, go get it. Now. Do not pass GO! Do not collect $200! Its a great movie. Yes, I cried through most of it-- that poor kid broke my heart a million times, but its a great story and well told. Plus, the son SJ is a riot!!
It was a great way to end the day, snuggled up with my guy watching a fantastic movie.
Yes, I'm officially 30 years old. It sounds awful, like nails on a chalk board sometimes, but at the end of the day, I'm the same old me. I don't feel any different. It hasn't depressed me- something I'm glad I can say honestly.
I don't have everything figured out yet, nor do I think I should, but I'm happy with where I am in my life right now and I can honestly say I wouldn't change a thing.


"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. " - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

1 Day Until I Turn 30

I had big plans for a big, heartfelt, soulful post today, but I'm out of time and honestly this blogging every day for 29 days straight has been difficult! So I'll leave it at this:

ONE DAY UNTIL I TURN 30?!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!



Though, I'll be honest. I'm really not even freaked out or phased by it! I know its just a number. In fact, I'm mostly just excited about a day off and an excuse to celebrate something, anything! It could be someone else's birthday tomorrow and I'd be probably be just as happy for them :)

So instead of my big long post I'll leave you with one last list- the list of what I plan to do tomorrow on my very rainy 30th birthday:

7:30-9:00a Yoga Class at the Cohasset Yoga Center
9:00-10:00a home, shower, eat a yummy healthy breakfast
10:15ish- head to The Creative Stitch to learn how to switch colors in knitting!
1:00p Lunch at Strawberry Fair with Krissy, Willy & Aila
2:30ish Wander around Derby Street. Maybe find a cute little something special for my birthday dinner to be held at Mom's on Friday night
Come home and clean up the house.
5:30- Prep and cook dinner
6:00ish Dan comes home- dinner with my favorite man and then "movie night" at home courtesy of Scituate Public Library and The Blind Side!! :)

Doesn't that sound like the most fabulous day ever?!?
Happy Birthday to ME!

Thank you all for following this ridiculous introspective and random blatherings series of posts! Its actually been more fun than I expected!

Monday, June 07, 2010

3 Days Until I Turn 30

Another snippet from an afternoon in my nearly-30 life. I got home around 4p and took a walk. I tried to capture some of my favorite sites.
This picture is actually a little older, but I love it and hadn't had a chance to share it. In fact, yesterday the island was cleaned and polished but unfortunately these beautiful peonies had already seen their day!
The light was jetting in under this leaf on the side of the road!


From the island near the ballpark.

I love this barn across the street from the Beechwood Baseball Diamond.

Another beautiful blossom from nearby the park.

From a house just off Captain Daniel Litchfield Lane.





And I even tried to capture some photos of me walking!




But all the while, the reminders that I will soon hit that BIG 3-0 were ALL around me! Check this out!
Well isn't that the truth?! :)

Sunday, June 06, 2010

4 Days Until I Turn 30

who i am right now

-a worker
-a scrapbooker
-a knitter
-a girlfriend
-a devoted daughter
-a giggler
-a sister
-an auntie
-a best friend
-a nail biter
-the one who sleeps on the left side of the bed
-a vegetarian
-a commuter
-a card-holding member of the Scituate Public Library
-a hybrid driver
-an eco-conscious citizen of this planet
-a creative soul
-a Red Sox fan
-a fool in my Zumba class
-a student
-a walker
-my own pedicurist
-an observer of all great summer traditions
-an easily sunburnt freckled girl
-a cleaner
-a wanna-be chef
-a slipper-in-public wearer
-a flip-flop fan
-a girly girl
-an in-the-car-by-myself-sing-at-the-top-of-my-lungs-singer
-a fast typer
-a fast driver
-a fast shopper
-a multi-tasker
-a blog (reading) enthusiast
-an amateur photographer
-an unexpected nature lover
-unable to pack lightly
-a travel nut
-a little vain about my hair
-addicted to my blackberry
-addicted to checking Facebook for updates
-a fabulous maker of homemade ice cream
-a dreamer
-a shopper
-a good cuddler
-a coffee drinker
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Saturday, June 05, 2010

5 Days Until I Turn 30

My life via the lens of Facebook.
A random smattering of posts from the past month or so...


Jennifer Lassonde-feeling hot, hot, hot!! time for an iced coffee and some ACed shopping centers ;) Saturday June 5 at 1:17pm

Jennifer Lassonde-soo much traffic. Finally in Braintree. Looks like we might get home before dark ;) Friday June 4 at 5:37pm

Jennifer Lassonde- heading home. The service for Rachel was really nice. It was great the Lassonde clan. :) Friday June 4 at 3:36pm

Jennifer Lassonde-Is up at Camp. Just had dinner- now its collage time. June 3 at 8:01pm

Jennifer Lassonde- loving my new haircut!! feels so fresh and light even though its not much different at all :) June 2 at 4:18pm

Jennifer Lassonde-back from the bike ride. not gonna lie, i'm a little wiped, but it was fun. late lunch at the mill wharf! thanks mom and dad :) May 31 at 5:01pm

Jennifer Lassonde- Took a 6 mile walk with my good friend Megg (thanks!). Home, cleaned up a bit and relaxing a little before Mom and Dad come over with their bikes. We're taking an 11 mile bike ride to/from Scituate Harbor!! :) What a great weekend.
May 31 at 12:48pm

Jennifer Lassonde-had a great lesson at The Creative stitch. my local yarn shop!!! I have a feeling I'll be a frequent customer there!! :) May 29 at 12:24pm

Jennifer Lassonde-sitting out on the porch experiencing this thunder and lightning storm! Its beautiful!! May 26 at 9:14pm

Jennifer Lassonde-is pretty sure my plan for an organized, fairly stress-free week is going swiftly down the tubes! May 25 at 7:40am

Jennifer Lassonde-is stuck behind a disabled train!! think I've been sitting longer than moving :-( May 24 at 5:19pm

Jennifer Lassonde-A fundraiser for my Breast Cancer 3-Day Walk this July! Thanks to my amazing friends and family- and DJ Trivia Host Dan- I raised a little over $1600 in one night!!! A HUGE success! Thanks everyone! May 23, 2010 @4:12pm

Jennifer Lassonde-celebrating 6 years with Dan today! 6 is my lucky number and I'm feeling like a very lucky girl today!!!May 22 at 11:00am

Jennifer Lassonde-on the T. Farm Share pick up then Cabaret Show. Have I mentioned I agreed to make a fool of myself doing a Zumba demonstration w/ 2 other girls at the end of the show!!?! oy! May 18 at 3:29pm

Jennifer Lassonde- busy day at the office. looking forward to coming home to a whole bunch of family to enjoy our first big grilling adventure of the spring/summer season in honor of Aunt Nancy's visit home. maybe we'll actually remember to throw on a veggie burger for me this time...hmm i doubt it... May 17 at 3:06pm

Jennifer Lassonde-having coffee with Courtney, one of my Marist girls, this morning!!! :) May 16 at 9:50am

Jennifer Lassonde-craft fair and yard sale at mom's house today. call for details or just stop by!!! May 15 at 10:21am

Jennifer Lassonde-on my way to meet my new cousin!!! May 14 at 4:10pm

Jennifer Lassonde-is enjoying a nice relaxing night... knitting. listening to Stern. cuddling up with Dan. doing my photography assignment. low-key and wonderful. hope the rest of the week doesn't ruin this wonderful start... fingers crossed. May 10 at 8:28pm

Jennifer Lassonde-Dan woke me up at 4:30 to head into work (we carpooled today). Its gonna be a looong day!! Unlike him I don't get home before 3p. May 10 at 6:57am

Jennifer Lassonde-Taco night!!! May 8 at 8:19pm

Jennifer Lassonde-the cleaning continues. switched out the winter clothes too. feeling very productive despite the rain... May 8 at 2:38pm

Jennifer Lassonde-its a Beautiful night at Fenway. and these seats are amazing!! Thanks Mom and Dad! :)May 7 at 8:01pm

Jennifer Lassonde-looking forward to my first Sox game of the season tonight. Almost couldn't find my jersey which would have been a disaster. these boys need all the help they can get ;) May 7 at 7:22am

Jennifer Lassonde-sigh. I love the library but I miss wandering around bookstores. Daydreaming in Barnes and Noble before class! :) May 6 at 5:40pm

Friday, June 04, 2010

6 Days Until I Turn 30

I have a number of blogging friends who do 13 on the 13th- a list of 13 things within a theme. A cute list... and I do love a good list... plus I've been doing this for 30 days and as much as I really want to document who I am right now and what things are like in my life, let's face it, there's only so much to talk about. I'm not usually so self-centered and I'm not exactly comfortable being that way... so today's not the 13th, which means I get off the hook a little easier.


SIX Things I Never Thought I'd be


An early riser// when I was a teenager I could sleep until noon any day my parents would let me. Even as a kid, Mom would have to drag me out of bed to go to the hockey rink on Saturday morning for Jeff's early games. I would dream of going to Suffolk Downs with Jeff and my Uncle Michael on a random Saturday morning to see the horses and take in all the madness that is the track-- and yet more often than not, I'd opt to sleep in and Jeff would go alone. I had the hardest time getting up for school in the morning and wasn't very pleasant when I did get up (right Mom??)

And now, while I'll be the first to tell you that 5am doesn't always agree with me, I am an early-riser. I'm much happier getting to bed around 10p, even on the weekends, and get up around 7 or 8am. Sometimes I lie in bed on the weekend and just hope I can go back to sleep until 9am which feels a little more reasonable in my head...it doesn't usually work. My internal clock has shifted. I must say I think I like it better this way. Weekends feel much more productive. I can walk and clean and get a bunch done and still have social-time or relaxation-time.

A domestic "diva"// Ok this is not the perfect word for it, but you get my gist. My room used to be cluttered with clothes (clean and dirty), Mom would have to remind me to clean my bathroom over and over before it got done and I hate helping w/ the chores around the house.

Now I LIVE for a clean house! I actually look forward to cleaning all the dishes and the counters and then polishing the granite on Saturday mornings. Its almost a sickness. I don't always have time to do as much as I'd like, but that inner clean-freak has grown inside me since we've moved to Scituate. We have few knick-knacks and things because I like to keep the cleaning process simple and easy so that its actually achievable in a 3 hour span.

Not only do I like it clean- I like it done my way. I read books about making my own cleaners and look forward to trying new "recipes." I have a system of cloths in different colors so that we rarely use paper towels for anything. I like the way I make the bed...

Stuff I never dreamed in a million years I'd care about. But I do.

A career-woman // I hated nearly every job I ever had. American Eagle (I liked it sometimes), babysitting, Spirit of Boston, Katharine Gibbs, Staples (not terrible but not exciting)... I did like working at the craft store, but I worked for my Mom and it was very much up my creative alley. Still, for most jobs I'd get a stomach ache just thinking about going in... I hated knowing that I had to be there for a set number of hours... I just hated it... and not because I don't have it in me to work hard, I just couldn't find my niche.

Here at MGH its a totally different ballgame. I came here just to get a paycheck and its turned into a lot more. I really enjoy my work (most days), and I like knowing that my projects can and do have at least some small impact on the patients and families who come here.

I'm still not a career woman in the typical sense of the word. I don't have huge ambitions. I don't live to get every detail done right away and put off time with family and friends. I NEED balance and this job provides that (most of the time). I don't have aspirations of being a director or VP. That's not me. But my work is important to me and I'm happy that my path lead me here.

At ease in the kitchen // I dabbled in baking when I was kid but that was about the extent of it. While my mom is a good cook, she doesn't go all out unless there's a party or special event... our normal week day meals were spaghetti, tacos, hamburger helper (Dad's contribution), chicken pot pie or some other chicken variation. Nothing extravagant or time-consuming.

I don't tend towards the extravagant or time-consuming either- especially not on weeknights, but I thoroughly enjoy the following about cooking:

--Searching out local, organic, healthy food
--New recipes to make healthier food easy and delicious enough to trick myself into eating on a more regular basis
--Making it myself- not relying on "packaged" version of things we forget actually can be made ourselves- like applesauce and ice cream.


Techie // Ok ok, the real techies out there would whole-hearted disagree with this one... but I do like my gadgets and I can hold my own at figuring things out. Blackberry, ipod, macbook, software.... I don't need the absolute latest and greatest- I try to balance my wanting of cool new things with "Do I really need this? Is my old one broken yet?" But I enjoy learning about what's new on the market and why its better than things that came before. At work two of my favorite projects are hardware and software based and I know more about servers and interfaces and HL7 than I ever dreamed of, but I like that I can at least understand most basic/intermediate IS conversations...

An Adult // I have been in the same full-time job for nearly 8 years. I pay my bills early and I pay extra. I have checks and credit cards. I have lived on my own. I own a car and maintain it. I do stuff even when I don't want to... because that's what you do when you're an adult. I make good decisions. I make bad decisions sometimes; I learn from them. I learn new things all the time. I try to make myself a better, smarter, more caring person.

In some ways I don't know that I'm all that different than the child and teenager I remember being. The core of "me" is still in there, but I'm a little more polished and a lot more confident. I still like to play with my craft stuff and watch girly television that does not require any braincells to process. I love hanging out with my friends and the fact that I don't have as many responsibilities as other people my age. Yes, I still feel very much in between, but I think as I approach 30 its hard to argue that I'm not an adult!

Thursday, June 03, 2010

ONE WEEK Until I Turn 30

My friend Christine posted on Tuesday about an idea she saw on The Simple Woman's Daybook.
Simple prompts that give updates and force you to think about what's going on in your life and finding beauty in the simple, ordinary things. Right up my alley.

Like Tini, I'm not a religious person, I'm hardly even a spiritual person, though I do believe whole-heartedly in doing things because they are right and for that reason alone. But I digress... I like this idea of using the same format to account the daily things from time to time... so join me if you will.

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FOR TODAY


Outside my window… it is grey and foggy. They say its supposed to clear up a big but then we might get storms again tonight. Par for the course this time of year I suppose. Still, I look out my window at work to see the Charles River complete with sail boats and the occassional Duck Boat. There's a park with people running, cycling and playing baseball. It’s a great view!

I am thinking…about all the things going on this month and not sure where I’m going to find the time, but then, I always do. Two baby showers, birthday weekend (YAAY), a Red Sox game, babysitting, Father's Day, moving Marilyn into her new apartment (YAAY)- and the shopping to get the place ready (Yaay!), getting ready for vacation. Oh and yeah- lots of walking wherever I can squeeze it in!!

I am thankful for…my best friend Kris. She's the one person I talk to nearly every single day- usually more than once. Email, phone, ESP! I swear I've just never had a connection with anyone like I do with Kris and I am so grateful everyday to have her as such a huge important part of my life. I know this is going to make her blush, but I don't care. She's amazing! And she deserves a little shout out!

From the kitchen…this week I made Giada's Apricot Squares that were to die for. I brought them to work twice this week and my co-workers are salivating and asking for more. I think the might be addicted after 2 short days! They're really heavenly, then again I'm biased- mix oatmeal with cinnamon and brown sugar and almost anything else and I'll likely fall in love with it.

I am wearing… a black and white printed dress. black footless tights. black maryjane crocs. comfy summer workwear.

I am creating… 4 canvases with cute little animals (giraffe, hippo, zebra & elephant with a monkey along for the ride). They're coming out super cute, if I might say so myself. I'm also still working on the pink and brown scarf for me :)

I am going… to be 30 years old exactly one week from today! I'm still not freaked out about it, but when I really think about that number it seems to odd and foreign to me. I still feel like a kid! How is this possible??

I am reading… Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol. Fantastic Book!!

I am hoping… this summer isn't too crazy. I have a bunch of projects ready to ramp up at work. Of course they can't stagger- they'll all hit their peaks around the same time and keep me here well past my 40 hours! I suppose I can't complain because I've had it easy lately, but I'd rather have things ramp up at a different time of year.. you know? I look forward to summer-- pool time, parties, cookouts, walks outside, exploring at the beach, all the carefree stuff we enjoy as children and try to cram into small, finite blocks of time as adults. I don't want those blocks to become to small.

I am hearing… silence. Rarely happens when you share an office with 3 co-workers. I'm enjoying it. (Ok technically I'm stretching the truth here. Even up ont he 6th floor I can hear a slight rumble of traffic from Storrow Drive below me).

Around the house…the rose bush that Kris & Matt gave me when I became Aila's Godmother is blooming beautifully beside the garage (a spot chosen only so that it was out of the way and would not be run over by a piece of machinary-- which apparently worked well)!! The daisies are multiplying rapidly in the backyard. The deer make an almost daily appearance now- though no sign of the new fawns yet. We put the AC in our bedroom window already. Still have mountains of wood outside in the driveway. My room in the basement still needs sheetrock attached to those studs… but we're making progress.

One of my favorite things… is the "Daily Thought" email I receive from Real Simple.com. It’s a quote with a gorgeous photograph and a welcome interruption into my morning routine. Today's says:

“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” ― Buddha

A few plans for the rest of the week... Heading to NH after work. Dinner at Poor People's Pub with Meagan and Gayle. Looking forward to seeing them, though not under these circumstances. We'll spend the rest of the night at Camp, pulling together the photos to make a collage for Friday's services for Rachel...


Here is picture for thought I am sharing... well an image really:

p.s. thanks to all of those who have been following along with this series! I literally can not believe I have kept up with it this week! definitely a first for me.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

8 days Until I Turn 30

This time last year I was recovering the in Same Day Surgery PACU here at MGH. That seems like eons ago at this point, but when I looked at the calendar (thinking it was June 4th), I realized it was in fact today. I had a small lump removed from my right breast, not knowing at that point what that 2cm mass was comprised of.

Here are my blog entries for that day and the day after if you missed them the first time around.

So let me take this time to do a quick Public Service Announcement- if you are a woman, please do your monthly self-exam! Here's some info from Susan G. Komen about how to do it properly. I know it seems silly but that's how I found my lump.

I was fortunate in that my lump was totally benign and nothing to worry about- news the doctor called me with on my birthday a week later. "I hope they looked at your birthday in your file and thought only to call you if it was good news" my Grandmother told me when I called her... I doubt they looked, but regardless the news was good. I am one of the lucky ones. I won't lie, it was scary, but I think I knew deep down that things would be fine in the end, regardless of what it took to get there.

But there are millions of women out there who see that lump on the ultrasound machine and aren't as lucky as I was. And its for them that I'm walking again this year. The Susan G. Komen for the Cure 3 Day Event in Boston is July 23-25th. I know its going to be a zillion degrees, but I am looking forward to fully participating in the event this year along with my dear friend Jessica.
If you are interested in making a donation you can click here to find my fundraising page. Or if you'd like to be a cheerleader that weekend, you can contact my mom, Diane Lassonde, who will be organizing a Cheering Station at the event (which will be a LOT of fun).

My fundraising page doesn't indicate it just yet, because I need to send in the rest of my donations, but I have hit the minimum of $2300 which I need in order to participate- so thank you all for your support thus far. And thank you for continuing to support me in this great adventure.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

9 Days Until I Turn 30

I received really sad news from my Dad that my Great-Aunt Rachel passed away late last night. Many of you have probably heard me tell stories about Rachel's Camp- the cottage on the lake where we spent countless summer weekends- and I spent some full weeks, exploring and being silly with my cousin Meagan. That Camp belonged to my Aunt Rachel and I have a zillion wonderful memories from this cottage on Great East Lake, NH.
So in honor of my Aunt Rachel, here are 30 things I love most about Camp (in no particular order):
  1. The queen-sized bunk-beds in the middle bedroom. We'd squeeze as many kids as possible into it and tell stories and even play up there. It was like an indoor clubhouse.
  2. Buying bubble gum and lollipops at the Marina.
  3. Going for long walks with Rachel and Meagan. We'd walk up the main road as far as the white house with the lilacs. That was always our turn-around point.
  4. The dance routines Meagan and I would practice in the boathouse.
  5. Telling the same "ghost story" over and over again (thanks to the internet I found the gist of it) There’s this ghost and it haunts this house. And it wakes up the dad, and it says “I am the ghost of the bloody bones and the dirty diapers.” And the dad freaks and runs out. And then the ghost wakes up the mom, and it says “I am the ghost of the bloody bones and the dirty diapers.” And the mom freaks and runs out. And then the ghost wakes up the baby, and it says “I am the ghost of the bloody bones and the dirty diapers.” And the baby says, “You can keep your bloody bones, and I’ll keep my dirty diapers.”
  6. Daiquiris on the dock
  7. Tuck
  8. Canoe rides to the dam
  9. Sitting by the fire at night
  10. S'mores
  11. Peeking out the curtains to see the adults' tv programs when we were supposed to be asleep in bed
  12. Doing puzzles on the porch with Rachel.
  13. Dad's post-baked-bean explosions and the inevitable jokes about them.
  14. Dad's potpourri in the pants invention (inspired by #13), that he didn't patten in time!
  15. Homemade blueberry muffins
  16. Poor People's Pub- and the sugar lollipops you'd get for free on the way out
  17. Playing Mall Madness on the floor with Meagan and Lynnie
  18. Painting the flowers on the porch
  19. Sleeping on the porch on a hot summer night
  20. Picking raspberries from the bush on the way to the beach
  21. Finally being old enough to swim all the way out to the dock floating off the shore at the beach! And jumping off!
  22. Creating a fort from downed branches up against the camp- and attempting to sleep out there overnight in lawn chairs. I don't think either Meagan or I lasted a whole night but we tried several times.
  23. Countless matching outfits
  24. Going out on Jake's boat
  25. Learning to waterski with Bernie
  26. Playing Nintendo in the first bedroom after the bathroom was enlarged- it was tucked under the top bunk! Bomberman!!!
  27. Lots of reading time
  28. July 4th fireworks across the lake (far enough away that even I could see them)
  29. Dad's Charles River Canoe Plans that he hatched on those summer 4th of Julys at Camp.
  30. The millions of other memories that I can't even put into words- just the feel of Camp!

Monday, May 31, 2010

10 Days Until I Turn 30

May Round-up

I've seen this on some friends' blogs and always mean to do it. It’s a succinct way to wrap-up the month. Share highlights that may not have made a post of their own… and yet I haven't ever done it… well, what better month to start!

1. What books and/or magazines did I read this month?
Books: A Change of Heart & Nineteen Minutes, both by Jodi Picoult. The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown [All Audiobooks]

Magazines: Real Simple (a few different editions brought in by my friend Kim from her local library). Body & Soul. Better Homes & Gardens

2. What movies, television shows, plays, etc. did I watch this month?

Our normal weekly viewing generally includes: How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang Theory (this is a new one. Dan didn't think I get the geek humor quite so much but I do enjoy it), Modern Family, Marriage Ref, Gray's Anatomy (me. not him. though he knows the characters and bits of their past. he chalks it up to osmosis… I often wonder). Weekend Nascar race.

I finally watched Food Inc (thanks to a free showing on PBS which I DVRed)- amazing movie; not much was new information to me since I've done a lot of reading but it was very well done.

The Hangover- it was finally released to cable. Dan was so excited. The beginning was slow, then it picked up a little, then I fell asleep. Not sure why all the hype; neither of us were thrilled really.

Up in the Air- another Library DVD free rental. Good movie- not "Oh my God, need to see it again great."

3. What fun things did I do with my family and/or friends? -

May 1st- We started off the month with Aila's first birthday party. A wonderful celebration for this little girl's first full trip around the sun. A sunny day, live music, lots of laughs, kids running everywhere, delicious cake and homemade ice cream. Everything a birthday party should be.


May 7th- My first Red Sox game of the season with Mom, Dad and Dan. It was the most perfect spring/summerlike night at Fenway I've ever experienced and even though the Sox played horribly.


May 9th- Mother's Day. We had a lovely low-key dinner at our house with Mom, Dad and Grammy. Jeff, Melissa and the kids came over for dessert, and Riley stole the show as usual saying "Happy Mutha's Day" to everyone- and making sure that included Pepere! Garret showed off his big smile! He's soo handsome with those chubby cheeks.


May 15th- We celebrated Aunt Nancy's visit from Florida with a pot-luck dinner at Larry & Leslie's. We had the whole crew- The Stenbecks and their boys; Uncle Charlie & Anna May; Uncle Thad; Aunt Lillian (Uncle Ray was home after being recently discharged from the hospital); Chris, Becky; Ray, Amy, Ben & Bella; Gen, John & Lilly, Kris, Matt, Willy & Aila; Fred & his daughter; Dan and me. We had dinner and dessert. The kids chased Bauer around the backyard until the poor pup was completely wiped! We all played Right, Left Center, which is always a blast! And for once, Brad didn't win! The funniest part of the night, however, might have been realizing that Uncle Thad drove back to the North Shore with Aunt Nancy's suitcase still in his trunk!!


May 22nd- My big Trivia Night Fundraiser! It was such a great way to spend our anniversary and Matt's 35th Birthday! All my favorite people were there to share in the fun!


May 29th- Chris Wilson's annual Memorial Day party! So much fun- even if it rained on and off. Lots of silliness as usual. The band was great. Dan and Carter even did a guest spot to sing "Creep" with the band!! Very very funny!

4. What gifts did I give and/or receive? - Even though Aila's birthday is April 27th, she received her gifts on May 1st, the day of her party. Uncle Dan and I bought her a Raggedy Ann doll and a couple books to go with her. A book called We Planted A Tree. And of course some clothes- beachwear for our trip to Florida and a 4th of July outfit.

5. What special or unusual purchases did I make? - Tickets to see Chelsea Handler this summer with Sheri!

6. What illnesses or health concerns did I have? - My back and shoulders are an absolute disaster. Nothing new per say... but its getting worse because I haven't been doing my stretches and PT.

7. What were my accomplishments this month? - Raising $1600 and surpassing the minimum fundraising goal for the Susan G. Komen 3 Day for the Cure!!

8. What were my disappointments this month? - Photography class was wonderful, but unfortunately my semester is through! And the summer will likely be too busy to make it possible for me to go back to classes right away.

9. How did I do on my goals for the month? (See 2010 Goals) -

I went and took a knitting class even if it was just a drop-in class. I learned better how to finish my knitting pieces which felt great. And I met the ladies at The Creative Stitch in Hingham who are great resources :)

I've also blogged a LOT more than usual this month :)

I raised my 3Day money EARLY! Check!

10. Anything else noteworthy to include? - Thinking about my Aunt Rachel who had a stroke recently, and Dan's Aunt Helen Ann who had knee surgery with some complications to follow. Wishing them both a speedy recovery. Love you!

I'm so grateful for the beautiful weather we've been having, and even more grateful to be able to enjoy it where we live. The deer visit the backyard constantly and even let me walk around (out to the compost bin and back) without even flinching. The birds chirp and make beautiful music all day. We're tucked away in our own little world, and yet close enough to the ocean that Mom, Dad and I could ride our bikes there and back without killing ourselves :) I'm feeling pretty good about this past month and looking forward to summer really beginning!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

11 Days Until I Turn 30

Today was a great day...

I got to enjoy the peonies in my Dad's garden...




and then he gave me some to bring home!
Thanks Dad! They smell gorgeous!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

12 Days Until I Turn 30

I was a week off...

Just last Saturday I was saying to Dan, "I wonder if the daisies will come back this year. I thought it was this time last year that they were blanketing the backyard." And yet there was nothing...

Daisies are my favorite flower and I love that they grow wildly through our backyard. No effort. Its nothing I can screw up-- because I can kill almost any plant.

Then this week I saw one lone daisy popping through... and by today we have dozens!! I was one week off!
Here's a peek at one.
A lot of the others had buggies on them which doesn't make for a nice shot.
So instead I'll post the photos I took last year and likely didn't take the time to post.

Kathleen Kelly: I love daisies.
Joe Fox: You told me.
Kathleen Kelly: They're so friendly. Don't you think daisies are the friendliest flower?
// Quote from "You've Got Mail" // My favorite movie!



Sigh. This is one of my favorites.


These last two really show you the duality that is our yard.
First, the beautiful fawns eating from our lawn. Spotted baby deer in the canvas of our lawn spotted with daisies. So gorgeous and natural.
Then move about 30 yards towards the woods, and there was an old piece of shop equipment [what it was, I do not know] rusted and old with the pretty daisies sprouting up in front. I love the contrast.
I love our yard! All the time there is something new to look forward to and admire. Such beauty right in my own backyard- literally.

Friday, May 28, 2010

13 Days Until I Turn 30



Knitting.
I love it.
Strike that-
I'm obsessed with it!
I think I knit at least a few stitches every day--
and frankly I probably knit far too much for my aching shoulders.
I'm trying to be better about that...
but its not easy
because knitting is FUN and PORTABLE.
a great combination.
I took my first lesson the first week of November last year and then flew the next day to Virginia to crop for the weekend-- and thus had my own tutors, Anya & Nicole, there to help me get the basics down! That first project was a scarf for myself in a beautiful shade of turquoise... which I then took out because the teacher failed to tell me that a rib stitch would curl// not the affect I was going for...
I put that project on hold and started a rib stitch scarf with a border- to prevent the curling- in a nice soft dark grey/ a Christmas gift for my very best friend Krissy! [need to take a photo of that!]
I then moved onto a Basic Sampler scarf- to learn some new stitches. This became a soft-off white organic cotton scarf for my friend Megg, again for Christmas. It looks like this but in a creamy, vanilla off-white color.

My third project was a much bigger one. For Aila's first Christmas I wanted her to have something from her Godmother that she'd always remember. And I made a blanket. AC Moore had the organic cotton yarn I love on sale and I was able to afford to buy a whole bunch of it in these very girly, fun colors.
Neither of these are great pictures, sadly. But you can get the idea. Its knit with 2 strands of yarn so its super warm and extra soft!! By the week before Christmas when I finished this I officially had the knitting bug in my system! :)

Then we had some more babies on the way- and so I started in on baby blankets. I used this basket weave pattern twice- once for Garret, in blue, and once for Isabella (whom we didn't know to be a girl), in green.

I've also finished another girl blanket and a boy blanket for some other little ones who are due this summer! I have so much fun trying out new patterns though, and with the latest blanket I even learned how to knit 2 together and slip stitches and pass over! I'm making progress slowly but surely.
The last project I finished was a scarf for my Breast Cancer 3 Day Fundraiser. Of course I forgot to take a picture of that, but you can sort of see it in the photo of Kris and me in this post.

What am I working on now?
A scarf for me-- the first item I might actually complete for myself, in the same yarn I used for the scarf Kris won. It matches my winter coat and my Vera Bradley Mod Floral Pink bags.

What am I working on next?
My next project will be another baby blanket!
But shortly thereafter I'm planning to hit my local yarn shop and/or AC Moore to learn more and do something that's not just a plain old rectangle :) Time to learn how to make a garment of some sort, or a hat or gloves. I also need to learn how to change out color within the same row- I did it in rows with Aila's blanket but that's a little different. Time for something more advanced.

So that's the state-of-the-state with knitting here these days. I'm still very much a beginner but I'm reading and learning more all the time. I just need a little guidance to get all the way there.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

14 Days Until I Turn 30

Yesterday I started with the girls, because, well... ladies before gentlemen right? Today I'll talk about the boys. From oldest to youngest.




Williard Carlton


Willy is nearly 3 years old (his birthday is a little more than 7 weeks from today). Willy is all boy- trucks, trains, race cars, planes, tractors, backhoes (anything that moves really) fascinates this kid. He can't get enough. Since the time he could barely talk he'd ask you to play "beep beep" with him (aka drive your matchbox car with his and occasionally crash).

But Will also has a very passionate, caring, affectionate side. He's always glad to give kisses and hugs. He screams "I LOVE YOU" when people he loves leave the house. He'll ask for one more moochie before I leave on Tuesday nights. If your face changes for even a second he'll ask "Auntie Jen, are you happy?" aka- what's wrong??


He's a wonderful big brother. He loves Aila so much its heartwarming to see.



And he's a HUGE ham! One of primary reasons I have sooo many pictures of this kid- besides the fact that I get a little shutter-happy, is that ever since he could say the words he's been asking "Auntie Jen, can we take a picture?" which has graduated to "can I take a picture" and amazingly enough- I do now let him do that. Only if he's in a non-hyper mood and careful. At the age of almost-3 he knows how to work the shutter and how to press the play button to show the image once he's done. He knows how to hold it carefully so the lens doesn't tilt down. Mostly the images are still shaky but he does pretty well.

His favorite subject you ask? "I want to take a picture of Aila"





I love you little man! :) I hope to show you how to really use my camera some day. Grandpa Bill would be proud.



Oisín Thomas
Pronounced- "Ush-een"
Ois (read: Ush) was born in Ireland, making him the only one of the 5 kids I didn't meet within a day of their birth! In fact, I didn't meet him for a couple months, but it was worth the wait. Ois-man is the cutest little all-American boy, which I suppose isn't correct since he's so very Irish, but bear with me, the analogy really works here.

Ois is just like Willy in that he loves his trains and other moving vehicles. Balls and bats are good too! And running around! I swear, he and Willy could chase eachother for miles and never tire of it. He's got the cutest little voice and the sweetest laugh. And because I know he will grow out of it and it will be ok, I can still appreciate the fact that he still says "mees" instead of please! so sweet!

Ois was a little more shy with me than the rest of the kids but it makes sense since I didn't have a lot of time for him to get to know me when he was a little guy- but now we're cool :) We spent last Tuesday dancing all night together in the kitchen at the Cabaret Show- we had a blast!! I'm so glad to have this funny little dude in my life.
Love you Oisín.


Garret Richard Leo
Garret's the newest member of the tribe. Lucky #6!
Born in March, one month before his sister's 2nd birthday- he is such a joy! He's all cheeks and smiles, the rolliest polliest baby you've ever seen. And that, in my opinion, is exactly what little babies SHOULD look like! :)

Garret is still a youngin' and I am looking forward to a long time of getting to know him and love on him. I have a feeling he's going to grow up to have the infectious laugh that Bubba did, and I already think of him in my head as the new little Bubba! :) With a face and skin like that, how can you not?!

I love you Bubba!

Stay as sweet and happy as you are now and you'll do great in this world.

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So these are the kids that fill my life. I love them so much. Each of their personalities is so different and they are all still growing and learning new things all the time which is just fascinating for me to watch. There is always something to look foward to.

I don't know that I want to have children of my own... I have no immediate plans I can tell you that much for sure. A wise friend once told me "the moment you can't live without children for one more second is the time you should have them," and that feels very right to me. But I can tell you that my life is much richer having experienced all I have with these little buddles of pure, unadulterated joy!






















Wednesday, May 26, 2010

15 Days Until I Turn 30

I must admit that I didn't think I'd be an auntie this many times over by the time I turned 30!!
But I'm loving every minute of it. Though technically I'm only a blood relative to Riley and Garret, those of you who know me well, know that Willy, Aila, Emelyn and Oisín are just as much my nieces and nephews and mean the world to me.
So since one of my favorite roles is as an aunt, I thought I'd share some of my favorite things about that... starting today with...
The Girls!
Riley Rose.
She just turned 2! Who can believe that?! She's so ridiculously smart- she must know 30 songs and all the lyrics to them, the whole alphabet, numbers in England and Spanish, lots of games, and she remembers absolutely everything! She can be bossy- "sit here" or "this is for Pepere" but I think part of it is that she's just so excited to have the people she loves around her and wants them to be close by. She has the most infectious laugh and can make me smile even if I was previously in a terrible mood. She knows where the toys are at my house and always heads behind the couch to get out her bounty, and then divvies up the books and other items assuming that everyone else wants to play with them just as much as she does. She LOVES serving anyone who will accept the plastic food she so meticulously prepares in her play-kitchen.
This photo was taken the night I celebrated her 2nd birthday with her. We had such a blast, being silly, reading books and eating cupcakes!

Riley loves being a big sister! She is so proud of Garret, and likes to be involved in everything related to him- changing his diaper, telling you when he ate, if he's sleeping or not. She's going to be a great Mommy someday. But for now she's a wonderful big sister.

This video is one that Melissa sent me today at work! Its really sweet- take a look if you have a minute-- and be sure to have the sound on.

Thanks for calling me Riley! I love you!

Emelyn Mae

This little babe just turned 6! Again- how is that possible?! The years just fly. I remember I was living in Boston when she was born. I walked from the North End to MGH to take the Partners Shuttle over to the Brigham to meet her for the first time, the morning after she was born.

Emelyn is another smartie- learning a lot at Montessori school, which she clearly loves attending! She loves her dance classes with Nanny. Emmy will try every trick in the book to attempt getting dessert or "a treat" without eating all of her dinner! The girl definitely has a sweet tooth. She loves playing games and doing puzzles, playing with her dolls and changing their outfits and trying new craft projects. She looks super cute in everything she wears from jeans to beautiful dresses. And she's especially sweet when she breaks out her "Irish" terms for things like "jumper" or "bin man."

Stop growing up so quickly Em! :) I love you.

Aila Grace

My Goddaughter, Aila, is the newest of the bunch and she's already a full 1 year old. Again- impossible, and yet its true.

Aila is a very tiny girl with a very big personality. When she doesn't get her way she grunts like she's going to explode! And yet, most of the time she's so absolutely loveable. She loves hugs and kisses. She follows around her big brother like he's the absolute coolest thing in the whole world. Willy loves to let her "escape" out of her room or his and he crawls after her making her laugh so hard you'd think she'll explode.

From the looks of this picture she'll be following after Riley very soon- since she already knows how to use her plastic cell phone.

She knows when something she does is funny and will do it again and again (like The Face). She's moved on from walking to nearly running and loves to climb things (watch out Mom!). She's all arms and legs, a skinny little thing who finally loves to eat but it took a long time to get there. Aila's still nursing and doesn't really sleep, the latter makes her mom very tired, so its a very good thing that Aila babe is extremely cute and loveable.

This little one is making a lot of noise but no real words yet. I can't wait to hear what she has to say because I know there's a lot waiting to come out!! :) I love you Aila babe.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

16 Days Until I Turn 30

love/hate relationship
the T
some days i love it
a lot of days i hate it
i take it twice a day, 5 days a week
and here's my honest opinion
hate \\ that it costs me $7 per day to park at Braintree when it literally rains throughout the garage because there are so many holes
love // that i don't need to live by a schedule. get there and at any point and within 5-10 minutes of your arrival you're on the train
hate \\ that there are days like yesterday when it takes me 45 minutes to get from Quincy Center to Braintree because there is a disabled car ahead!
love // that i don't have to drive. i can read, knit, listen to my ipod, sleep// or all of the above
hate \\ that whenever it gets really rainy or cold or hot there are delays. you can count on it.
love // that i run into people like my dad or my cousin kara and we get 40 minutes of unexpected quality chat time
hate \\ that nearly every day i take the T to braintree but when I get to the Charles/MGH platform, the next train through is an Ashmont.. yet on the rare occasion when I can take either train, a Braintree is the first through.
love // that the masses of sweaty people on the train are doing a better thing for the environment than driving in their own cars by themselves
hate \\ that sweaty people on the train STINK something awful
love // the random person who wants to chat on the train and is actually an interesting person to converse with
hate \\ that people think its ok to snap their gum and scream into their cell phones while on the train... i don't want to hear you taking about your mother's goiter removal thank you very much
love // meeting a fellow knitter on the train and getting pointers (yes, that has happened!)
hate \\ waiting on the platform for ages when its cold and the signals are frozen and the trains are delayed
love // that i don't have to sit in traffic on the expressway
hate \\ the lack of temperature control. in the summer its inevitably stuffy and HOT and in the winter and its always freezing!
love // that i get phone signal/internet connection most of the way
hate \\ that people squash themselves into a seat that they clearly can not fit into and would need at least twice as much room to fit their body- yet they mash themself in anyways. i love when a stranger's thigh is squarely on top of mine. very comfy
love //that i usually get a seat on the train in both directions because of where i get on and off
hate \\ belligerent, drunk, smelly, screaming, fighting, vomiting, swearing people (or all of the above)